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 SO. Apparently part of my distress over the lack of public library time was due to the fact that socially, I am a cat. 

A big part of how cats socialize is via something called "Mirroring." Cats will hang out in the general vicinity of their colony mates and mimic their position and activity. This, as it turns out, is a big part of why kitty climbs on your laptop. "What is today's activity, large friend? Touching the clicky tappy thing? Okay, fine, I support you in your weird hobby and I shall ALSO touch the clicky tappy thing! Look at us! Sharing an experience! Hanging out! Being bros!" This is also why getting them their own laptop or keyboard can help. 

It turns out, quietly looking at my phone and reading books while being in a room with many other humans who are ALSO quietly looking at their phones and reading books? That's what socializing looks like on me. And it formed a not insignificant chunk of my human interaction and was a vital pillar of my self care and psychological maintenance. Who knew? 

... I have started Teddy Bear Book Club. Every other day, I pose some of my stuffed animals in chairs with books so they look like they're reading. I set my own chair across from them. Then I tune my computer browser to an online noise generator and tinker with the settings to sound like a busy public library and throw in a children's audiobook from librivox for extra authenticity so it sounds like there's a volunteer holding storytime in the children's corner. And then I sit and read. 

It helps. It helps a BIZARRE amount. My mood and concentration improved immeasurably and I got a lot more reading done. Then when I put the teddies away I got a lot more writing done. 

Weird times call for weird measures. 
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 The restlessness from self isolation due to Covid 19 is starting to get to me. Not in the way I expected. Honestly, I didn't expect it to hit me much at all. It's not like I'm a wild party animal social butterflying it up at the best of times. Holing up at home is only a slight deviation from my usual routine. 

But that slight deviation is starting to be felt. One aspect of it in particular. 

Dear GOD I miss the library. 

I went every week, to pick up all my holds. And there would be a LOT of holds, because I would spend the rest of the week browsing the collection online and placing them. And now I can't go to the library and get any new books, and I'm DYING. I am BOOK STARVING TO DEATH. 

Yes, the ebook library exists. But the ebook selection for my poor underfunded local library system is pretty thin and heavily slanted towards romance. Not that I don't like romance, precisely. But I am very very picky about romance and I rarely get lucky. Their selection of sci fi and fantasy, my preferred genre, is sparse as hell.

My family had purchased an out of town membership for the big city library, and while we can't use THEIR ebooks, I could sign out physical books to my heart's content, and anything they don't have, I could get via interlibrary loan. 

But now all the libraries are closed. 

It's not like I don't have books at home. Even plenty of unread books. But... I don't have any NEW books. The unread books are still OLD unread books, familiar unread books. My TBR piles are familiar landmarks. New books, never seen or opened books, there's a feeling to them. A thrill. There's something pleasant and comforting having new shiny books coming in and out of the house. And the library was how I indulged that craving without spending money I don't have and making the tsundoku problem even more embarrassingly large. 

But for weeks there have been no new books. 

ANGUISH. 

It's a ridiculous non-problem of a problem, but apparently this is how the stress of pandemic social distancing is hitting me. I long for libraries. 

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