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LEAVE this laptop, vile spirits!
Feb. 5th, 2019 11:30 am My gaming laptop is broken and after two trips to the shop to be worked on by very expensive and frustrated technicians, it is not only still broken, but it is also now turning blood red and flickering scratchy white sigils as it artifacts and crashes. So at this point we cannot conclusively rule out demonic possession.
I wonder if they can get a young tech and an old tech to work on it together. What would be the laptop equivalent of bell, book and candle? Holy water is probably ill advised but maybe someone can bless a compressed air canister.
I joke because it's the best I can do to keep from weeping. It's embarrassing how... emotionally dependent on that thing I apparently am. I still have this old desktop, and a smartphone, so it's not like I'm cut off from the wider world yet. But I miss being able to take my writing with me. I miss being able to take WoW to a nice cafe with a better internet connection. I miss simply being able to take whatever I'm doing to a different room when my ADHD ass brain decides that it doesn't like working in these walls and wants different walls. I miss taking my games to my friend's house and bullying her into playing weird visual novels with me.
And dammit I am apparently emotionally attached simply to the device itself, Toy Story style. That beastie went with me to Japan and back. I MISS it. I really, really cannot afford to replace it but even if I could I probably would still be sad.
It's like my entire life is suddenly the wrong SHAPE, like someone moved all the furniture just a few inches away from where it's all supposed to be and I keep bumping into corners.
It's melodramatic and I feel guilty and annoyed with myself at how dependent I am on a Thing. But... it's MY thing and I like my thing.
*sigh* I'll try one last trip to the techs and find out how much heroic measures would cost.
I wonder if they can get a young tech and an old tech to work on it together. What would be the laptop equivalent of bell, book and candle? Holy water is probably ill advised but maybe someone can bless a compressed air canister.
I joke because it's the best I can do to keep from weeping. It's embarrassing how... emotionally dependent on that thing I apparently am. I still have this old desktop, and a smartphone, so it's not like I'm cut off from the wider world yet. But I miss being able to take my writing with me. I miss being able to take WoW to a nice cafe with a better internet connection. I miss simply being able to take whatever I'm doing to a different room when my ADHD ass brain decides that it doesn't like working in these walls and wants different walls. I miss taking my games to my friend's house and bullying her into playing weird visual novels with me.
And dammit I am apparently emotionally attached simply to the device itself, Toy Story style. That beastie went with me to Japan and back. I MISS it. I really, really cannot afford to replace it but even if I could I probably would still be sad.
It's like my entire life is suddenly the wrong SHAPE, like someone moved all the furniture just a few inches away from where it's all supposed to be and I keep bumping into corners.
It's melodramatic and I feel guilty and annoyed with myself at how dependent I am on a Thing. But... it's MY thing and I like my thing.
*sigh* I'll try one last trip to the techs and find out how much heroic measures would cost.
